"Make Lemonade"
"Make Margaritas"
"Ask for the Tequila and Salt"
"Wait, Where's the Vodka?"
"Keep Them: FREE LEMONS!"
My favorite answer is this one:
"If life gives you lemons, throw them at life and see if life will make the same mistake again."
I am all for the "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me" aspect of life. Of course I didn't follow that rule for the last relationship (Against my better judgement, I granted one more chance). I thought maybe I knew better. I thought maybe people can change, really. I tried hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, thinking it really could be all white picket fences, owning my own business from home, and trying to support the love of my life who I truly believed was the one, who promised to marry me and had plans to within the next year... But life threw me lemons instead.
I decided in those next 30 minutes, after the initial shock that it really was over - to never, EVER, let anyone walk all over me again. It turned to more of a "I'll get them before they get me" mentality. I don't care if I'm selfish, I'm 27 (nearing 28 too fast) with NOTHING that I ever wanted in my life in my 20's.
If you had asked me 10 years ago, on my 18th birthday, what my wishes of where I would be in 10 years, this is what you would have heard:
"I'll be 28, married to my best friend, with 2 kids, a house, and an English Bulldog or a Great Dane."
When in reality: Today, I'm 27 years, 10 months - single with no real prospects, no kids, and a fat tabby cat (Yes, the crazy cat lady mentality is already starting, and I'm not even 30).
I think it's time to realize my happily ever after isn't going to happen the way I planned. Obviously, nothing has gone the way I planned, otherwise I would be married, I would at least be working on my first baby, and not still be living at home with my parents (I stayed home to save money, and deal with 2 chronic medical problems that have plagued me since I was 25).
The past 2 weeks have brought nothing but good news for me, in which I hope to return to my new normal:
"Make Margaritas"
"Ask for the Tequila and Salt"
"Wait, Where's the Vodka?"
"Keep Them: FREE LEMONS!"
My favorite answer is this one:
"If life gives you lemons, throw them at life and see if life will make the same mistake again."
I am all for the "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me" aspect of life. Of course I didn't follow that rule for the last relationship (Against my better judgement, I granted one more chance). I thought maybe I knew better. I thought maybe people can change, really. I tried hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, thinking it really could be all white picket fences, owning my own business from home, and trying to support the love of my life who I truly believed was the one, who promised to marry me and had plans to within the next year... But life threw me lemons instead.
I decided in those next 30 minutes, after the initial shock that it really was over - to never, EVER, let anyone walk all over me again. It turned to more of a "I'll get them before they get me" mentality. I don't care if I'm selfish, I'm 27 (nearing 28 too fast) with NOTHING that I ever wanted in my life in my 20's.
If you had asked me 10 years ago, on my 18th birthday, what my wishes of where I would be in 10 years, this is what you would have heard:
"I'll be 28, married to my best friend, with 2 kids, a house, and an English Bulldog or a Great Dane."
When in reality: Today, I'm 27 years, 10 months - single with no real prospects, no kids, and a fat tabby cat (Yes, the crazy cat lady mentality is already starting, and I'm not even 30).
I think it's time to realize my happily ever after isn't going to happen the way I planned. Obviously, nothing has gone the way I planned, otherwise I would be married, I would at least be working on my first baby, and not still be living at home with my parents (I stayed home to save money, and deal with 2 chronic medical problems that have plagued me since I was 25).
The past 2 weeks have brought nothing but good news for me, in which I hope to return to my new normal:
- I have been cleared off disability and was working 4 hours a day. I just received clearance for 6 hours a day, with returning to full time September 23rd.
- I just signed my first lease, and am moving into my own apartment (no roommates, unless you count the fat cat) on October 4th.
- For my birthday in November I am going on a weekend yoga retreat with my mother and it's being taught by my two favorite yoga teachers.
- I joined our local Stampin' Up! card making group and while I am the youngest, those ladies are a lot of fun!
- Yoga daily. Right now I'm practicing 4 times a week. Once I get into my apartment I will have the space and I will find the time
- More meditation. I need to learn to control my anxiety naturally.
- Reconnect with my girlfriends, or make some new ones.
- SLOWLY learn to trust again.
"People are like stained - glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within." - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
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